Making the best of a bad situation

Last summer I was unemployed.

I decided, with the encouragement of the local milliner's, to apply for a small business grant. I registered my business and worked towards fall and winter markets. I rented studio space in a temporary gallery in the downtown of Barrie Ontario.  That is where I painted for several months in the summer.
It was a good experience.

I have been working a 'mic' job since February and it is affecting my ability to focus on art and design. I need to paint.
I need to weave.

I am committing to half the hours I previously worked.  I will weave. I will make accessories like, scarves, hand spun necklaces,  bags, shawls, hand spun yarn, pillow shams, rag rugs, place Matta etc.

Anything I can warp with the materials I have on hand.

city of craft anyone?

So about four years ago while I was studying Textile arts in North Vancouver under the fabulous Mary Lou Trinkwon and Ruth Schuing, I was Given a button by Mary Lou.
She and Ruth had Just come back from a Complex weavers conference in Toronto and had gone to several exhibitions and shows.  She told me to check it out, and I did, I have been following City of Craft ever since.
I am a visual artist and like many of my peers I tend to fall into general service work when I am not studying.  I manage to exhibit a few times a year but I have yet to achieve much.
Last summer I registered my first business, Stephanie Moyle, Village Weaver, I  was unemployed at the time and qualified for a small business grant locally through the Simcoe County YMCA.  I  was able to participate in several local craft markets both independently and with my weaving guild, the Huronia Handweavers. I sold almost all of my infinity scarves and was feeling good about my business prospect's, but in February I reluctantly
accept another service job...
I need to make the leap...
I want more than anything to be self employed and nothing in the world scares me more.
It's why I don't post.
It's why I always put off taking the photos until it's too late to apply.
I am terrified of failure and it is getting me nowhere.
I will not make excuses and I will never let myself take another service job again! I mean it!